A Mother's Heart

This post was difficult to write.  Sharing some things is challenging, but I am often encouraged by the many inspiring bloggers in blog land.

From the first moment that you hear you will be a mom you want nothing more than to protect that little life growing inside you.  And as moms know, that does not change once they are born.  More than anything we want to shield them, keep them from pain and heartache.  We would rather take on their pain than allow them to go through it.  Your heart rends and breaks as you see them struggle with life's difficulties and uncertainties.

This summer our daughter was diagnosed with Mayer Rokitansky Kuster Hauser syndrome.  I have known that something was not right for sometime and we have been seeing doctors, having bloodwork done, ultrasounds, more doctor's appointments, and mri's.  We have a diagnosis and we are thankful that it is a mild case.  This syndrome can affect kidneys, bone structure and more and we are blessed that that is not the case with our daughter.  But it still breaks my heart that she will struggle with infertility.  She will never carry her own child.  I know there are many women who have walked down this same path.  I have read the stories but never really understood the depth of their feeling, their struggle and their pain.

She is ok with this diagnosis right now but I can't help but wonder what she will feel when the time comes, she meets someone special, and they would love to start a family.  Will she feel inadequate, sorrow, or longing pain? As a mom, I would take this all from her in a minute if it were possible.  It is not possible and I will be here for her as she needs me.